beanthis82

The over night job

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 10:49:46 GMT

I'm back at kohl's in mechanicsburg. Im working over nights. I really enjoy it. What is really funny is that out of the whole over night staff....there are only 2 guys. The rest is all female. But I clicked with 2 of them. I know its been ages since ive posted here but nothing i really wanna talk about. Too much stress and drama. Not worth my words lol. Anywho its time for bed. Maybe later i will indulge in the latest news of Sean's World. Who knows? Peace out girl scout!

Good old Monday

Mon, 01 May 2006 17:26:27 GMT

So its Monday afternoon. Not a whole lot of excitement. My weekend wasnt anything spectacular. Just worked at the Road house. Its going well there. A lot of "colored people" and "ethnic" people work there. Not sure how I feel about that place yet. In other news life is going good. Just wished I had more money to do things. I hate being dirt broke. Still cant find a new place for me, Heidi, and Karen. I been a lil depressed about that but its nothing to be worked up over. Well ok I been a lil depressed in general. There isnt really reason for it. I guess its just one of those times. So in upcoming events in this month my mom is getting married. I'm in the wedding and I have my tux ready to go. I feel I look like a goober in it. Some people say i look cute but i disagree. Oh well. Xmen 3 comes out this month as well. I'm so seeing that opening day!! Some movies i've seen recently:Slither, Scary movie 4, Silent Hill, V for Vendetta. Ohh another plus is that my apt is super clean, and I had my family over. It was a fun night. Anywho nothing more to say really. Peace out!

Nothing major

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 19:36:25 GMT

Ummm.....just a small update. I got a new job. I quit applebee's. I work at the Texas Road house in Union Deposit. I'm a prep cook. I work 10-5 monday through friday. And sometimes on the weekends. I love it. I dont remember if I had mentioned before that i got my labret pierced. But yeah thats pierced now. I got a kitty! He's white with a blue eye and a gold eye. He is super shy and hasnt really came out from under my bed since i got him. Except to eat and potty. I named him Tweekers. Since he tweeked out when i got him lol. Umm nothing else is really new. No man, same friends. Thats about it.

A quickie

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 15:23:36 GMT

I got my labret pierced on tuesday. Its a little sore but its all good. Oh and plus if anyone has myspace then check out my myspace. Its www.myspace.com/beanthis82

I got pics and it looks awesome. so go and check it out. oh yeah its 420 hehehe

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 19:57:53 GMT

Hahaha I prolly deserved this

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 04:26:35 GMT

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Oh what a night! I'm the shit!

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 00:19:25 GMT

Oh my god! Thats all i can really say at this moment. Last night was a fucking amazing. Last night I went to stallions for the first time in a long time. I really didnt want to go but it was my friend's birthday so i felt like i had to go. I got there around 12:15 am. Drama started right away! I wasnt even there for 5 minutes and brian started giving me shit. He was all like get off my floor. And he started shouting. I kept my cool cause i didnt even say a word to anyone. I was getting money out of the atm. Then he started to walk around the bar. And he's lucky he didnt come at me cause he does not want any of this. I got no problem kickin a bitches ass! Employee or not i will take anyone down! Plus Karen jumped right in front of me. She was like I got your back. Not that i needed her to but she's just a good friend like that. Anyway I went and paid and just went right upstairs. So yeah it was me, Karen, Eric, Dana(who was my sexy date!)and Eleny and her friends. I had 5 shots and about 10 Captain and cokes. I was drunk as shit but i still was dancing like it aint nobody's business. I kept buying Dana his drinks. God we make such a cute ass couple. He's sooo my type. He was like I gots me a suga daddy! Anyway i gotta continue. So the night itself was a blast. Everyone was drinking and everyone was dancing. I was dancing with Dana and his brother Eric. It was HOT!!! Anyway, we stayed till close. Everyone was drunk but Eric cause he was the D.D.! Pictures were taken at the bar of me and Dana kissing. Which I'll post it on myspace when i get it. After we left the bar things got really wild! We all ended up going to Dana's house. 1st off we're all drunk so when we get there Karen went and started packing the bowl. So we started getting high. After we smoked Dana and I ate some shrooms. Omg that was such a blast. I was drunk, stoned and i was tripping balls!!! Like i said last night was the best night of my life!! After an hour things got very interesting. Me and Eric(a str8 boy) started making out!!! Thats why I said I'm the shit! I was kissing a str8 boy! Oh and that boy sure can kiss. Needless to say wild things happend. But I'm gonna keep that to myself but I'll let the imagination run for who ever reads this! All I can say is DAMN!!! The night didnt come to an end until 5:30 am. I got home around 6am and i went to bed cause I had to work at 12pm today. The best part is I didnt get sick or hung over. I mean i didnt sleep long but i'm ok with that cause I'm still not tired. Last night will always be a night that I will remember for the rest of my life! Oh another best part about last night was no body came up to say anything to me! I did see everyone but I wasnt about to go say hi. And nobody did the same. I am ok with that too! The only person i talked to was Rachel. I bought all my drinks from her too! Anyway thats all for now. Another night like last night will be happening again soon. Just not too soon!

My Life, My Time

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 19:29:40 GMT

Where to begin? First off I just wanna say I'm very happy in my life now. Now that all the drama and bullshit is out of my life. No more gay bars, gay drama, no more anything. I've got amazing friends. I been having the time of my life(which is well earned and deserved!)I've met an awesome guy. Which is funny cause I've known him for 2 years. And since we've talked and gotten to know each other better things have been going well. At this point we're just dating. Not bf status, just dating. He's really cute and he's well off. He has a lot going for him. His own house, a truck, a bmw, a motorcylce, he just bought a speed boat. Its funny cause he's my age and he has so much. Someday I will be well off. I'm really happy. We've gone on a good bit of dates. We've gone to see V for Vendetta, went bowling, hung out at Riverside Dukes, drank at Applebee's(lol), gone to dinner a few times, Drank at Coaklys! Now here is the shocker.....We didnt have sex yet! Just not ready for that yet. And I know its a shocker since most people think i'm easy and a slut! But My best friends all like Josh and thats important to me! So lets see what else is going on. My, Karen and Heidi are still trying to find a place. This saturday I'm joining a gym and I'm starting to go tanning again. I wanna look hot for this summer. Get some muscles, nice tan, looking sexy lol. Work sucks like normal. Things have just been going so well for me. Finally its my turn to be fully happy. And I have Heidi, karen, Matt, Josh(my cutie), Eric, and Dana to thank for that. You all have been such great friends. I dont know what I would be doing with out you all. Like I said this summer is going to be a blast and one to remember for a life time. In a way its kinda like a whole new me! New attitude, working on a new look, new everything! Oh yeah I'm getting a cd player put in my piece of crap car hehe. Last night was very interesting. Well work sucked like normal but Mark was there sitting at the bar drinkin coffee cause he was a drunk one. But after work we all went across the street to the YP for some drinks. I got a chance to ramble on to mark about things. Just getting the final things off my chest. But its a brand new day and its time for me to shine and be in the lime light again!!!! Thats all for now. Peace out fuckers!

Tragedy strikes again.

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 01:24:36 GMT

It was very hard when I found out the other night that my friend had died. Her name was Zeynep Barnes. She fell to her death on St. Patrics day. I dont really know the whole story. Just what i saw on the news and read in the paper. I just cant believe she's gone. She was such a good person. I will miss her very much. You will always be in my thoughts and heart. I'm so sorry. I wish we could have spent more time together. I know i dont regret anything but this time I do. I regret that we drifted apart and i hate myself for not being the good friend that you were to me. I'm terribly sorry. There is so much I want to say to her but i cant now. Rest IN Peace Zeynep!!! Your In the Arms of the Angels!

What a day!

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 08:36:02 GMT

Wow what a weekend. So friday i was supposed to work 10-3. One of the new guys called and wanted to work so i gave him my shift. So i got out of work at 12:30pm. So i got to enjoy the whole day. It was so beautiful out. I went to the mall and drove around just cause i wanted to be outside. So friday night i didnt go do anything. No big deal. I hung out with Karen and Heidi. So saturday was very awesome. At lunch time i went to my brothers very late wedding reception. Saw family i havnt seen in a while and met my sister in laws family. After that I watch the new harry poter with Heidi. Then we went to walmart cause we wanted to do something active. We were planning to play Bat mit(i dont know if thats spelled right but ya get the point). But walmart didnt have anything like that so we ended up playing tennis. So the four of us(i forgot that Eric went along too) went to the hampton park. We played tennis for 2 hours. I hit myself in the face with a tennis ball. It was very hilarious. After that we came home to chill. Then i got ready to go out to Gulifty's to see a band play. It was an awesome time there. Karen tagged along with. I got really hammered. Karen and I danced while the bands were just rockin out. Such a fun time. I'd say this was the best night i've had in a very long time. Oh i'm just so glad i'm away from all the gay's and the fags and the gay ass drama. I left that life behind me. Best of luck to all of you. But that scene is not for me. So now i'm just living life to the fullest and seein what life brings me on the way. And its starting to look good for once too! I been smiling a whole lot since i havnt really smiled in a very long time either. And i would like to just say a few things about the important people in my life right now.

Karen-I'm so glad we're friends! You are such a good friend and i know you will always be there for me. I'm glad you will always be by my side!

Heidi-I would have to say that you are my best friend. I know things were a little odd between us back in the day. But I'm sure glad we have our bond!

Eric and Dana-You both I would say have to be a rare set of brothers. You both are like night and day. Eric your day cuz you are full of life and energy. and Dana you are night cuz you are very laid back and complete chill. Plus a great person to just talk with.

Matt-My little dork. You so cute it makes me sick. I knew when i met you we'd hit it off. Your an amazing friend. Your just like me and that scares me lol! Just remember if things dont work out then ya always have me!

If it wasnt for you all, I dont think I would be all together. I'm so lucky to have you guys in my life! Just really amazed we're all friends, and we're having the time of our lives! Cant wait for the summer cause this summer will be one to remember for a very long time! So enough sappy stuff. Cant wait till Tuesday! Gonna love being down in Atlantic City! Life is just the best right now. No more stress or drama in my life. I would have to say gay life is such a downer and the bar scene is too! Cant get any better than this! Peace out fuckers!

Just a quickie

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 07:02:16 GMT

On the 14th I'm going to Atlantic City with to people from work. The next day is the cook olympics at applebee's. Its gonna be held at the new applebee's in the Harrisburg mall. I'm actually a part of it. Our store is coming up with its team and I'm a part of it. So far its Eric, Amanda, Mary and myself. We still need two more people to have a full team. Anywho thats all for the moment. More to come soon enough.

Its official

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 04:35:11 GMT

Well its official. I have room mates!!!! It will be Karen, Heidi, and Myself. Now all we have to do is find a place. Rock on!!!! I'm soo happy and excited!!! Yay me! More details about that will come later. Later Fuckers.

Random thoughts # 2

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 04:03:27 GMT

So when i clocked out yesterday at work i had 49.1 hours. Thats 9 hours of over time. That comes to like i believe $14.75 an hour. Freakin awesome and i should have 42 hours this schedule. Plus i'm getting my tax return on friday. Cant wait. And I get paid this tuesday. So I'm gonna have a good chunk of money. After paying up all bills and getting the things i need to get done I'll still have a good bit of that left. Still very undecided on what to do with the remaining money. I also had a revelation today. I've decided also that its my life and i'm gonna live it. No more worrying about anyone. No more giving a shit on what any one thinks or says. From here on out I'm going to be me. I'll be anyone's friend as long as they are a friend in return. If you need advice i'll give you the best damn advice i can give. Need a shoulder to lean on then well have mine. I dont care what anyone does anymore. This whole thing came to me today at work. This girl Erin was talking to me about her mom. She had moved back home and decided to take some time away from her bf. Her mom hates her bf cause he doesnt make all that much money and he's the father of Erin's daughter. Erin said she spent the night last night at his house. And her mom freaked out about it. All I said was its your life and you live it. After a minute of thinking about what i said, I decided to take my own advice. Its time to take my life into my own hands and stop putting people before me. It is time for some changes and bring the original me back, with some new changes as well. There is no point on living if you cant feel life. And I havnt felt life in a very long time. Its time for me to live and feel life. I want to be free. So the next time anyone calls me or hangs out with me or anything like that you will see me in a whole new way. Also I will have a date soon on when I'm having my party. Oh yeah my look has changed. I'm gonna be tanning again soon. I cut my hair and I'm growing my mohawk back. I'm going to be joining a gym soon and I'm quiting smoking soon. Like I said its time for a change. Well thats all for now. Later fuckers!

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 19:40:21 GMT

You are Vlad the Impaler. The man behind the legend

of Dracula. You hanged your victims,

stretched them on the rack, burned them at

the stake, boiled them alive, but mostly

impaled them. Most of your killings were

politically targeted but sometimes you killed

just because you were bored. Your "reign

of terror" lasted from 1456 to 1462.

Estimated numbers of victims vary between

30,000 and more than 100,000.
Evil Evil man. Fie on you!

Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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nice

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 19:33:39 GMT

How evil are you?

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 20:13:55 GMT

You Are The Emperor

You are an authority figure, and other people look to you for what to do.
You are strong and powerful. Crossing you is not a good idea.
You have worked hard to get to your position, and you're not about to give it up to anyone.
Though you have a warrior heart, you are gentle to those who treat you well.

Your fortune:

In the near future, you need to be willing and able to defend those you love.
This may be the time for you to step up and be the authority figure to those around you.
It is time for you to be independent, to become your own person.
You may need to look at your relationship with your father, or your relationships as a father.

What Tarot Card Are You?

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 20:09:53 GMT

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is high.
It's your way or the highway when it comes to love.
You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life.
No question, you like to be the one calling the shots.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

Time to make a change

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 20:37:52 GMT

:Sigh: Hateful, angry, pissed, annoyed. most of all "I'M SICK OF IT!!!!!"

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 07:40:20 GMT

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A depressing start to Valantines Day

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 07:18:36 GMT

Well this sux. It's valantines day and I'm alone. I'm very depressed cause I got no one to share this day with. I dont really hate this day. I just hate the fact that I'm single and alone. I hate being such an emotional sap. I hate having feelings and being such a hopeless romantic. Maybe if I was a little different then I would have somebody. But I got no one. Plus I work 4-close tomorrow and we're gonna be super busy! But i just want to take someone to dinner, buy them some sweet present and to hold and do all the romantic things that this day is all about. Oh well. Someday something will come my way. I'm tired of chasing people and trying so hard to make things work. Maybe if i just be selfish and dont compromise anything then maybe someone will want me and chase after me. I think i'm decent looking person. Oh well. I guess its gonna be another shitty ass day!

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 19:49:04 GMT

"Semi-Charmed Life" by Third Eye Blind.

You're realistic and see most things as they

really are. You realize that your life has

it's ups and downs and take things in stride.

What is the theme song for your life?
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Fri, 10 Feb 2006 19:44:18 GMT

BLUES are motivated by INTIMACY, seek opportunities

to genuinely connect with others, and need to

be appreciated. They do everything with

quality and are devoted and loyal friends and

employers/employees. Whatever or whomever

they commit to are their sole (and soul)

focus. They love to serve and will give

freely of themselves in order to nurture

others lives.

BLUES, however, do need to be understood. They have

distinct preferences and occasionally the

somewhat controlling (but always fair)

personality of a confident leader. Their code

of ethics is remarkably strong and they

expect others to live honest, committed lives

as well. They enjoy sharing meaningful

moments in conversation as well as

remembering special life events (i.e.,

birthdays and anniversaries). BLUES are

dependable, thoughtful, nurturing, and can

also be self-righteous, a bit worry-prone,

and emotionally intense. They are like

sainted pit-bulls who never let go of

something once they are committed. When you

deal with a BLUE, be sincere, make an effort

to truly understand them, and truly

appreciate them.

What Color Are You?
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Another late night

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 07:35:13 GMT

Well its another sleepless night. I dont know why i cant sleep. I seriously think i have some kind of insomnia. Like right now I'm not tired. I dont feel tired or sleepy. Although I do think sometimes I cant sleep is because I've got soo much on my mind and i'm always thinking. A lot of times i think about the most stupid things. And it just runs through my head and i end up tossing and turning. I dunno like tonight i tried sleeping but i just layed there awake staring at the ceiling. So here I am. So much crap running through my head. Not sleepy at all. God this fuckin sux ass. Ok so here is one thing that is running through my head. What to do with my tax return. Well I'm getting back about $1500. So yeah I'm gonna catch up all my late bills. But I'll still have a decent chunk of that left. Now here is what I been thinking. So I would like to take a mini vacation. To just go away for a day or two. Nothing to exspensive. And it doesnt have to be all that exciting. As long as its fun and there is something to do. Ok so here is what else i been thinking about that. Maybe after i finish cleaning my apt. I'll have a small party. Buy some snacks and alcohol and invite friends over for some fun and good times. Or I was thinking that I would love to get an animal. Something in a cage or a kitten. I'd go to the asapca and adopt one. Just because I'd like to come home and have something to do other than sit online or watch tv. Just frustrating to have soo many thoughts at once. Ya know I also been thinking about myself lately. I begin to wonder if i'm an actual good person. An actual good friend or just a friend at all. This came on today at work. I was talking with some co workers and we were talking about who we liked and disliked. Amanda had told me that when i first started there everyone in the kitchen hated me. They said i was an arrogent asshole. Now I had never thought I was like that. Or was like that at all back then. I thought I was just being me! but ya know they all like me now. I just feel like I try to hard to be a good person and a good friend. I try to hard to get people to like me and actually be my friend. Back when I was younger I didnt give two shits what anyone thought of me or if anyone even liked me. I was free, wild and care free. I just didnt give a fuck! But now I care about what people think. And I care if someone likes me as a friend or if someone doesnt like me. I know I can be hard to take and hard to get along with. But it just gets me, I have a cell phone and people have my number. But yet no one calls. No one really wants to hang out or go make plans with me. Now am I that bad of a person? Can people change? I thought I did and I thought I had became a better person! Like I said maybe I try too hard. Maybe making efforts to change myself and to like myself all over again just wasnt enough. I dunno. Like I said it sux having shit just run though my head. and not hardly sleeping. And not being tired. Oh well, guess thats just life.

Some Random Thoughts

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 06:41:57 GMT

Ok so tonight is the gauntlet night. Every monday I go downstairs to Karen and Heidi's apt to watch the realworld/roadrules gauntlet. I really dont like a whole lot of reality tv but I must admit that i'm hooked on a bunch of them now. I also watch Surviver, Vh1's Fittness club, and The Apprentice. I just cant help myself. Those shows got me hooked on them. Oh yeah and I also watch American Idol! In a way I feel like a dork but whatever. We all have some kind of flaws. I have a baby shower coming up soon. Yeah the token gay cook at Applebee's was invited to a baby shower. It will be fun though. I think Amanda is freakin awesome. She will be such a good mommy! Although she needs to start working on her swearing. That girl has a sailor's mouth. So I have off on saturday and what sucks is that I gotta be at Applebee's at 8am for a stupid trainers meeting and a safety meeting. Nothing like being at your job on your day off for some stupid meeting. Needless to say I will be attending in my pj's! I also dont know what to do on saturday. I might go bowling with Heidi. Not too sure yet. My sleep schedule is all messed up. I should be tired right now but i'm not. And yes I am just talking very random. I'm just bored with many thoughts. Plus I dont normally post cause I dont got a whole lot to talk about. I just like taking those little quizes. Anyway I'm done for now. Peace out fuckers

What kind of God are you?
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DOB
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You earthly time was spent	Supplanting kingdoms, punishing tyrants and levelling the empires of the wicked with the breath of your nostrils
Your throne is	A humble respte overlooking the rolling hills of Elysia
You wear	A humble tunic and robes, belying your inestimable supernatural powers just waiting to shatter the woes of Creation
Your Godly superpower is	The knowledge of and answer to all questions

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